That's not really uncommon. It takes awhile for us to know what we want.
[Fear had to be faced, though it was easier to say that than actually manage. It sometimes took the worst happening to remove fear, not something she was sure should happen to Eponine. She was already at her lowest. This was progress.]
You're not bad for feeling this way, Eponine. That's a natural response. You're going to make mistakes and choose wrong, but it's what you do afterwards that matters. If you keep trying, even after the mistake, you'll be the better for it.
[She could tell Kosem about the mistake she’s quite sure she’s making in blackmailing Kate or in stealing Daphne’s jewels… but she can’t. She knows Kosem will be furious with her. Her dominant might even march her off to the People Zoo herself, a fate Eponine would hate.]
I don’t know what to do, Ma’am. I don’t even know how to find something nice about myself, you know?
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[Fear had to be faced, though it was easier to say that than actually manage. It sometimes took the worst happening to remove fear, not something she was sure should happen to Eponine. She was already at her lowest. This was progress.]
You're not bad for feeling this way, Eponine. That's a natural response. You're going to make mistakes and choose wrong, but it's what you do afterwards that matters. If you keep trying, even after the mistake, you'll be the better for it.
I've made my own.
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[She could tell Kosem about the mistake she’s quite sure she’s making in blackmailing Kate or in stealing Daphne’s jewels… but she can’t. She knows Kosem will be furious with her. Her dominant might even march her off to the People Zoo herself, a fate Eponine would hate.]
I don’t know what to do, Ma’am. I don’t even know how to find something nice about myself, you know?